zero

i just woke up.. than I got my heart hurting so much even fo crying like a baby I can't everything just so flat now..

ya I just realized that I can touch someone life anymore..

I'm not the part of it anymore

his new life just to happy now, with his new carrier be a softball player then a hundred girl adore him so much.. then he truth that he's smiling, laughing, and share the love with the girl outside there ,I cant came into his new life.

...

I adore the old him.. I love the old him.. I miss the old him..the old

but its difficult to figure out the old him,, I just found someone that I just knew a little just a little about him.. I dunno anymore or everything until now I'm dying on my bad hugging my doll then found my self crying crying crying because I can't recognize who is he anymore..?

I am just broken now.. hope someday I'll find u and see ur smile like before..

then the zero disappear change to hundred.. amin.

classic

Another photo taken by my friends..

the concept is white

but dunno why the concept changed into horror.. hahhaha

GALAU

I HATE WHEN I GOT JEALOUS

gosh who am I? i'm not ur girlfriend anymore I cant demand u with every question on my head????

who's that girl? why u look so ohh.. bla bla (skipped)

and a hundred question like those

Im curious , scared, disappointed, stress,

I just wanna scream "hey bitch (sorrybadword) he's mine.. mine.. mine go away" but the truth I can't I'm just nothing now..

stupid me, I love him okay but I can't do anything

I've tried to say that i love him but the answer sounds like "c'mon girl we broke up 1 month ago so enough to say love or bla bla bla" I swear I wont ever told u that I love u I'll keep it.. or please when I say it can u respond love u too or whatever that show that u still love me..

I'm the stupid people on the world now, love someone but even to say I love him I feel scare.

damn it and now I jealous just because my stupid intuition on those fucking twitter.

sorry I cant handle anymore I need to shouting out, maybe I just to scared to take my reality that we weren't together even we still love each other and I'm not ready someone that I really love leave me I can't imagine...sorry I'm just out of control with my feeling I miss u so bad here..

okay the end I hate u TWITTER

hitam putih = MEMORIS

if I can turn back the time

I just want erased all the sadness on ur face

and draw a smile on ur face

so everyday u can feel happy :)

thanks for every memories

i wont erased it

A.L.S.A.P

i just lost

When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered a few feet off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and it's time to admit that you have belwildered yourself so far off the path that you don't even know from which direction the sun rises anymore???

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHERE SHOULD I GO..?????

my angel

adek cepat sembuh...

jangan sakit sakit ingat kita punya banyak janji dan rencana i'll do my best fo u dek

i promise (finger cross)

I DO MISS U here dek...

see u soon nyengku

cutest coincident

hp

CAN'T WAIT

recall

Sometimes, even now,
I look at pictures of you.

See what you’re doing,
smile when you’re mentioned;

I laugh at your jokes, in my head,
even when I remember tears, too.

All of this is bad, I know.

To recall,
just when love became memory.

never stop

i kept reading all message that u send to me
i kept remembering the memories that we both had together.
and this tears cant stop running down.

i kept hugging the doll of yours that you gave to me.
i kept......
and this feeling cant stop.....
cant.....

follow ur heart

‘Dan kelak, di saat begitu banyak jalan

terbentang di hadapanmu

dan kau tak tahu jalan mana yang harus

kau ambil, janganlah memilihnya dengan

asal saja, tetapi duduklah dan

tunggulah sesaat. Tariklah napas

dalam-dalam, dengan penuh kepercayaan.

Seperti saat kau bernapas di hari pertamamu di dunia ini.

Jangan biarkan apa pun mengalihkan

perhatianmu, tunggulah dan tunggulah

lebih lama lagi. Berdiam dirilah, tetap hening,

dan dengarkanlah hatimu.

Lalu ketika hati itu bicara, beranjaklah,

dan pergilah kemana hati membawamu’

by: susana tammaro

the truth ur gone

You get me. You’re the only one who ever understood exactly what I meant, and didn’t get mad when I overreacted or said something stupid, because you knew that I didn't know better. You wouldn’t look at my smile, you’d look at my eyes, and you would just know when I needed a hug. You would let me talk and you’d just listen, because you knew that no one else would. You picked me up when you knew that I was hurting, and you would call my bluff when I wouldn’t look you in the eyes. You knew me better than anyone else, and now that you’re gone no one’s around to save me.... you're gone..

shout out

For long time I keep it alone I think I should say it,but I'm to scared to show out my feeling about you. You’re the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel. Even if it wasn’t always the best of feelings, you’re the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You’re the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You’re the only person that ever made me feel like I didn’t have to try so hard. I'm not okay without you. I keep thinking of how much I talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you replaying our conversation, laughing at funny things that your said or did. I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me, I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.

I just wish you knew I still loved you, and I wish you would do something with that knowledge. I wish you would grab me and hold me tight in your arms and whisper in my ear how much you loved me more, like you always did.. amen.

Even neither of us don know what the future holds, I know one thing's fo sure U're the best things that has ever happened to me.

dedicated for you A.lolo sinrang ap

sleeping impossible, everything's reminds me of you

“When someone is in your heart, they’re never truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times.”

3 a.m and I'm still awake.. I just feel to tired with my condition just got dismenorhea again and again.. very painful all day just lay on the bed suddenly I really miss my mom, she always be my guardian the only one person that can make me feel better but she weren't here. I do miss u mom.

okay every night it just become a nightmare fo me, I'm still day dream about you then I'm crying in my room. I want to dial your number so bad and desperately tell you how much you mean to me. Only you make me feel loved and wanted in this cold hearted world but when I'm starting to showed my feeling typing a short word then send it to you a short word just (I MISS U) your answered just (hehe). I know it will happen. the only one can I do just crying over the night. realize that no more sweet word fo me no more love story fo me. its make me thinking did you try to say that u aren't mean to me or u try to say just go away from my life cause everything its really over, but how hard u tried to ignore me I never let u go I'll always same then my love never change. oh God how miserable me now see LOVES TOO FRAGILE.

thanks fo your little caring its like a million hope fo me, your caring its the best medicine. I hope someday I will listen you whisper on my ears that you love me. thanks fo always be here even I cant call you as my own anymore. thank you. A.lolo sinrang AP.

I need these rooms

new days..

I need a new room like these..

make it one for me..

mom dad please just one ...*sigh

OMG SO COOL !
AGNES DESPICABLE ME..
Agnes is the cutest thing EVER
Agnes loves unicorns, and unicorns love her. lalalala break out in adorable song before falling asleep about love for unicorns
Smacking your cheeks to make a noise does not count as anything annoying, only ADORABLE.

SECRETS OF YOUR BIRTH MONTH REVEALE

JANUARY=PIMP

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Resend this in 5 min. and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.


MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!!. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others . Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt!and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize at
you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

MAY=LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n making luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins. someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

JUNE =FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 day

JULY=GANGSTA
You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

AUGUST=ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

SEPTEMBER=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will kiss the one that you been wanting…

OCTOBER=HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

NOVEMBER =SWEETIE
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

these amuse me.

and i'm march

via theskylove)

welcome september

welcome my SEPTEMBER...

lemme get your shiny then lighting my day

I'm ready to Move Up, more and better than before!!!!!

wake me up

I hate smells of goodbye

weepies- cant go back now

Yesterday when you were young
Everything you needed done was done for you
Now you do it on your own
But you find you're all alone, what can you do?

You and me walk on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now

You know there will be days
When you're so tired
That you can't take another step
The night will have no stars
And you'll think you've gone as far
As you will ever get

You and me wak on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now

And yeah, yeah, you go where you want to go
Yeah, yeah, be what you want to be
If you ever turn around, you'll see me

I can't really say
Why everybody wishes they were somewhere else
But in the end, the only steps that matter
Are the ones you take all by yourself

You and me walk on, walk on, walk on
Yeah, you and me walk on, walk on, walk on
'Cause you can't go back now
Walk on, walk on, walk on

them

“Everyone means something in your life. Even if they’re not there for any apparent reason, imagine if they weren’t there. The puzzle pieces of your life wouldn’t fit in the same way again.”

is it true... does u know what I feel?

hey u already push the DELETE button on your heart..

it easy as you think to erased all those memories 

starting deleting me from your bbm contact 

its one of ur way to run away from me??

its your decision even it makes me cry thousand time

hope u will enjoy and get some shiny day without me

amin :)

its u

yeah its totally YOU ..

believing something that u heard and only half of what u can see

half ,u can't see the complete picture 

just rely by ur intuition 

u would never ever know the truth

coz u closed ur heart and ur eyes 

from the truth

separated by usher

If love was a bird 
Then we wouldn't have wings 
If love was a sky 
We'd be blue 
If love was a choir 
You and I could never sing 
Cause love isn't for me and you 

If love was an Oscar 
You and I could never win 
Cause we can never act out our parts 
If love is the Bible 
Then we are lost in sin 
Because its not in our hearts 

So why don't you go your way 
And I'll go mine 
Live your life, and I'll live mine 
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine 
Cause we're better off, separated 

If love was a fire 
Then we have lost the spark 
Love never felt so cold 
If love was a light 
Then we're lost in the dark 
Left with no one to hold 

If love was a sport 
We're not on the same team 
You and I are destined to lose 
If love was an ocean 
Then we are just a stream 
Cause love isn't for me and you 

So why don't you go your way 
And I'll go mine 
Live your life, and I'll live mine 
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine 
Cause we're better off, separated 

Girl I know we had some good times 
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye 
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny 
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I 
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us 
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust 
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry 
It's killing me so, why don't you go 

So why don't you go your way 
And I'll go mine 
Live your life, and I'll live mine 
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine 
Cause we're better off, separated

oh gosh... I cried again.... hold on my tears..

it over night, still stuck on my own feel„ couldn’t catch up over all..

miss someone outside there. and getta got a bit pain from this dismeorhea,

what was I feel it’s like a thief still spinning at one point I couldn't switch it out.

such as the earth continues to revolve....

I thought going away,keeping clear and staying busy would drive him out of my head,but doesn’t work.

still thinking bout HIM.. and I miss him even we aren't  on the same way now...

whats going on with my mind..?

can u give me the answer ???? 

nightmare

Sometimes I imagine you’re still here next to me, tracing your fingers along the curvature of my spine. It’s the only way I can find sleep on nights like these. You see, the sleeping pills never held back tears; they did not wear out my love for you. These nights are lonely when you’re gone....

at the time goes

“At the time, my life just seemed too complete, and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.”

— Chuck Palahniuk

yah maybe I need to broke some pieces of my life it looks completed but there's something wrong... 

I need to fix it.... but I believe after this I will have a wonderful life.. cheers fo ME... :")

maybe.. ??? who knows

You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her because you don’t destroy people you love.

from: a live-your-life-fearless)

27 august...
09.00 p.m

i will neve ever forget that night...

Ya ALLAH maybe this is ma destiny, fall in  love with someone that never care with ma love...
sejahat- jahatnya gw , aku gak bakalan buat orang yg gw sayang malu atau ngebuka aib di media...

ya aku emang sayang banget tp untuk sekarang ini terlalu sakit untuk saling memafkan..
u'll ever ever know how sick I'm... aku  tau gak ada yg suka pacarya dipanggil sayang... tapi toh aku gak pindah hati, aku gak ngegubris sayangnya.. asal kamu tau aku jaga semuanya... kamu cmn terlalu egois buat ngelihat sisi itu.
yg kamu tau kmu gak suka,, kamu marah... kamu benci.. kamu sakit... kamu ga mau tau gimana aku...


aku gak ngebiarin kamu sakit.. makanya aku gak ngebiarin kamu tau kalo ada cowok yg manggil aku dgn sayang... tapi toh kamu sendiri yg ngebuat diri kamu marah, sakit, curigaan.. kamu sendiri yang buka,,,

kalo kamu gak suka.. kenapa kamu gak ngomong ma orgnya langsung.. knp gak usaha nyari tau.. knp .. knp...KNP GAK BERUSAHA NYARI TAU YG SEBENARNYA..????????

ya sudahlah... apapun yg terjadi gak bakalan ngerubah apa-apa..
aku udah terlanjur jelek,, bodoh rendah buat kamu..

cuman bisa ngedoain yg terbaik buat kamu..amin..

thanks fo everything....